Let's talk about life, shall we?

I dunno. But it seems quite meaningless to keep on studying without even having an ultimate goal in life.. Like what am i going to be in the years to come?

You know, i really admire those people who have a very clear idea of what they are pursuing.. Like one of my cousins.. his JC life was so well planned and it seemed to me that everything he does totally make sense and is purposeful.. he gained exposure in politics in year 1.. took part in several overseas CIP trips.. did exceptionally well for promos and was awarded the top scholarship in his school.. holds exco position in council.. and now he's taking cellular biology H3... and his CCA = canoeing... Excelling in academics, leadership and sports will certainly allow him to take up almost anything he wants... and he's already clear of what to do... Medical...

But how many of us can actually do that well in JC??? University admission is so competitive nowadays and we sometimes do not get to study what we want anyway..

Then again... there's another group of people who simply have the opportunity to escape the competitive and stressful education life in Singapore... Furthering their studies overseas after completing JC..

The choices left for me are rather minimal for i would nvr want to go overseas to study as i'll definitely miss home.. and there are only very few courses offered in NUS.. to date.. there are only 3 courses that actually interest me [dentistry, chem engineering, Accountancy]

I consulted my mom on taking accountancy... she told me a long but enlightening story... i had previously misunderstood the scope of an accountant as simply just accounting for all the company's spending etc. But this is however only a small portion of this job... [from what she experience] ... an accountant has to be very sharp... and he needs to have perfect information on the market prices of every good and services purchased by the company... Otherwise, personnels in the company can actually take advantage of his innocence and claim extra $ to what they purchase.. He has to deal with difficult people and will often have to offend other people to fight for the interest of the company... He has to modify accounting system and think of new ways to handle the claim etc. and he also have to provide budget for the firm's future investment... argh!!!! basically evolving around economics... tough job...

Hey actually i was thinking it might not be too bad anyway... coz whilst handling accounts for yr company... you can learn to handle your own account at the same time too!! haha.. nvm...

Chem engineering? Actually to be honest... i have almost no idea of their scope of work at all!! i just thought that since i liked physics and chem... something that involves this 2 might be a good choice...

Dentistry... just a sudden interest in this area of expertise... needs further awareness...

I feel so tired of studying for the sake of studying... i really hope there's something that will interest me greatly so i can attempt to work towards it as my ultimate goal... then perhaps studying will no longer be so much of a burden... maybe i'm thinking too much... but maybe not... coz anyway we have to decide what courses we want to take in a few months time..

i was trying to sort out my thoughts while typing this... hmmm... but i think it kind of made me more confuse... ... ...