Let's talk about life, shall we?

I dunno. But it seems quite meaningless to keep on studying without even having an ultimate goal in life.. Like what am i going to be in the years to come?

You know, i really admire those people who have a very clear idea of what they are pursuing.. Like one of my cousins.. his JC life was so well planned and it seemed to me that everything he does totally make sense and is purposeful.. he gained exposure in politics in year 1.. took part in several overseas CIP trips.. did exceptionally well for promos and was awarded the top scholarship in his school.. holds exco position in council.. and now he's taking cellular biology H3... and his CCA = canoeing... Excelling in academics, leadership and sports will certainly allow him to take up almost anything he wants... and he's already clear of what to do... Medical...

But how many of us can actually do that well in JC??? University admission is so competitive nowadays and we sometimes do not get to study what we want anyway..

Then again... there's another group of people who simply have the opportunity to escape the competitive and stressful education life in Singapore... Furthering their studies overseas after completing JC..

The choices left for me are rather minimal for i would nvr want to go overseas to study as i'll definitely miss home.. and there are only very few courses offered in NUS.. to date.. there are only 3 courses that actually interest me [dentistry, chem engineering, Accountancy]

I consulted my mom on taking accountancy... she told me a long but enlightening story... i had previously misunderstood the scope of an accountant as simply just accounting for all the company's spending etc. But this is however only a small portion of this job... [from what she experience] ... an accountant has to be very sharp... and he needs to have perfect information on the market prices of every good and services purchased by the company... Otherwise, personnels in the company can actually take advantage of his innocence and claim extra $ to what they purchase.. He has to deal with difficult people and will often have to offend other people to fight for the interest of the company... He has to modify accounting system and think of new ways to handle the claim etc. and he also have to provide budget for the firm's future investment... argh!!!! basically evolving around economics... tough job...

Hey actually i was thinking it might not be too bad anyway... coz whilst handling accounts for yr company... you can learn to handle your own account at the same time too!! haha.. nvm...

Chem engineering? Actually to be honest... i have almost no idea of their scope of work at all!! i just thought that since i liked physics and chem... something that involves this 2 might be a good choice...

Dentistry... just a sudden interest in this area of expertise... needs further awareness...

I feel so tired of studying for the sake of studying... i really hope there's something that will interest me greatly so i can attempt to work towards it as my ultimate goal... then perhaps studying will no longer be so much of a burden... maybe i'm thinking too much... but maybe not... coz anyway we have to decide what courses we want to take in a few months time..

i was trying to sort out my thoughts while typing this... hmmm... but i think it kind of made me more confuse... ... ...

the journey has not ended, the last lap has yet to come

Stunned!! I thought it would be quite easy... I thought i had knew enough... and I thought after today all will be over and i can totally rejoice... But today's Q and A session for my H3 research presentation thought me a lot more depth and insights into my project... i was asked questions that i had nvr thought of before... and those 4 professors sitting before me today totally knew my project inside out!! Sometimes i'm really impressed by the quantity and quality of their knowledge... it's super!!!

It taught me one thing... there's still so much more to learn... so much more to read up on and understand... it's interesting.. and to appreciate this project.. one important recipe is PASSION..

The presentation went quite well.. but Q n A was rather tough... didn't manage to answer all the questions... but i did learn a lot... there are still so many interesting things to find out... so many further research to do... now that i think of it... it could nvr end...

There are misconceptions in my project that are clarified only today... and i'm glad i could finally figure out the correct explanation after some prompting...

SSEF is next week!! I hope i can take these few days to strengthern my explanation and build up on my knowledge.. This is the last lap of my research journey as a young scientist =) .. i'll treasure it!!!!

It's been a long and tiring month for me... and it's only now that i could find time to reflect on everything...

Yeah! there had been a few class outing lately.. and it's all about having lunch and watching movie... haha... The first was 'Sweeney Todd'.. the first M18 show i've ever watched.. supposedly i'm not exactly allowed to watch that yet for i've yet to turn 18... well.. i thought it was rather disturbing and disgusting at first.. the killing part esp.. it gave me creeps and it took me some time to get over it... kind of a bad choice of show to watch for new year eve though.. coz shows are supposed to make you feel happy after that.. and not the entire opposite!!! haha.. Hmm.. other than the killing.. i thought the story line wasn't that bad and the songs were nice..

The second was 'Juno' ... err... i think the storyline is super boring.. only the last part was a little touching.. didn't really enjoy it coz i was suffering from quite a bad backache during the show.. =( ...

Oh.. and CIP at Zheng Hua Primary School was super fun!! The children are all so adorable and i just feel so happy teaching them =)

Road run today was fun too!! though tiring... haha.. Solaris didn't win =( ... but i guess it's ok anyway... coz we all tried our best =)

Guess that's all i could remember... the coming weeks will be even busier... with H3 exam and SSEF... SPAs too... hmm... i really hope i can still find time to play though... like basketball etc.

gotta go sleep now... there's still dance tml.. and my back is already aching =( ..

STAR symposium

Star symposium is a day where all of us get an opportunity to present our research projects to the teachers, professors, and students in NJC. It marked the completion of our research project. To me.. it feels like a great achievement and there's really this sense of satisfaction within me. Well.. it gave me more opportunities to practise presenting and yup... it gave me more self-confidence too =)

When i first step into research last year.. there was this feeling of stress within me that was so disturbing.. there were many problems that needs to be solved and many complications throughout the entire journey... i was like a 'blur sotong' for the first few weeks... hardly knowing anything that i'm instructed to do.. But the light of research is only seen after i found out the purpose of doing this research project.. from then on... i finally got the whole picture and began to understand what i'm doing.. and ya... it's kinda interesting only then..

I went through the struggle.. i've forgone many opportunities (e.g. Aristal and attending concerts from other CCA) ... but i'm just glad to say that it ended quite well anyway =)

5 of us from ICES (Institute of Chem Engineering and Sciences)

Other pics:

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone!!! Gong Xi Fa Cai, Wan Shi Ru Yi, Bu Bu Gao Shen... etc. etc. =)

and Hi there hamster... this year is a big year for you =).. so must eat more and grow grow grow!!! haha...

Reunion dinner was great... the food was great =) that's the most important part i guess.. and also... i finally got a chance to chat with all my cousins.. it's really been a long time since i last chat with them.. for they are always so busy and i hardly meet them around even though they only stay one block away from me.. Two of them are already working!!.. and the youngest is the same age as me... =) But he's like 10 times smarter and more capable..!!! oh.. and the hamster you see above... that's my cousin's.. look really really cute and i love it.. but it bites though.. and that can get really really painful...

Went to my other cousin's house the first day of new year... hmm... but sad to say he wasn't feeling that well still... hope he can quickly recover... then we can play like how we used to play every year again =) ...

Well... the two baby cousins came too... Very adorable... but clinging as well.. coz they were like following me wherever i go... gets a little irritating sometimes... but i dun really mind though =)

The younger one reminds me of my brother when he was young.. how he used to follow exactly what i did everytime... even dancing... haha.. She too... always repeat whatever her sister says.. Maybe all children are like that =)

Hmm... after all the new year goodies and stuff.. my throat is getting a little sore le =( ... and i'm like sneezing the whole day today =(... super super uncomfortable... 2 more days to go before school starts again.. yup.. so better treasure 2 more days of relaxation before the work starts pouring in again..

But for now... guess what i need is a good nite sleep =)

Some pictures to share:

J2 Dancers + Xin Yan =)

Typical Yan Jia

Charlene, Me and Yan Jia

Ying Liang, Charlene, ME!, Xiang Jun

Dance performance was great today... really really funny and enjoyable to watch... Well Done Juniors!! =)

Yay!! i finally felt so free from work again =) ... Felt really really happy today for some reason...

Bingo during maths lesson was really fun.. and it kinda made everyone hyper.. Still can't believe how Jared actually won 3 times... and Marvin thought he had some sort of a 'bingo code'... haha.. LOL..

Went for dance outing after school.. it was kinda like an impromptu decision... coz i was super prepared to go home already... but Jing Hui juz suddenly popped out and ask if we want to catch a movie..

Yup.. so we all went to Jurong East...

Watch some pple ice-skate while waiting for the movie (27 dresses) to start... and wow!! the little girls can all skate so so well... wish i had learnt.. and i'm still waiting for an ice-skating outing someday so i can ice-skate for the first time in my life.. sounds so fun!

'27 dresses' was quite nice la.. not exactly fantastic... but satisfactory... the only not so nice thing is the seat and basically the entire environment in the theatre... coz it's like so cramp... gave me a backache and made me giddy too =(...

CNY is finally coming... perfect time to put on lots and lots of weight... well... juz hope i won't fall sick after that though.. =) yup... and i can't wait to play with my baby cousins... coz they are ever so cute =)

Yeah! today feels great... and i hope tml will be better =) ... and so for all the other days yet to come... =)

it has been a really busy week again... the pace of life is really getting faster and faster... and if this is already wat we are experiencing in term one... i could hardly imagine life in the terms to come.. sigh... maybe J2 life is juz like that.. tests... and more tests... ... i really wish i could juz go out and enjoy myself totally, putting all the tests and everything behind.. (like go to the beach again and shout my heart out.. or juz simply go shopping without having to race against time...) Tell me... When will that day come...................??


Acceptance. Yupp... that's what i need.. So i'll juz leave the sad things behind...

Kayz... Last SUNDAY....

Mug like mad for the mechanics physics test on monday till i could literally feel my head burning... but not for long though.. coz soon after... i was forced out of the house by my mom to go shopping.. haha... Went to Far East Plaza.. Got 2 dresses and a pair of shoes... quite productive indeed... =)

Well i first thought that i'll be deprived of new clothes this year judging from the fact that i had very little time to shop.. but it appeared to me that i've actually over-shopped... perhaps forced shopping = increase productivity =)

K... this is what my brother did while i was shopping:







Playing Handphone while
waiting for dinner....















During dinner...

After dinner...

Oh ... and first time he
smiled for the camera =)

Juz before we left for home







Conclusion: Guys hate shopping... either that or he juz love his handphone game toooooooo much...